You know that uncomfortable space between stagnation and change? That’s where I’m living right now. I’m living in the space cohabitated (spell check says I made up yet another word – score!) by head knowledge and a lack of action. I am not writing this out of shame or guilt, but rather out of a desire for a transparency that will create community. My prayer is that this post will be the catalyst I need to thrust me back into living more healthfully.
Yesterday I submitted, or resubmitted rather (gotta love technology), a guest blog post about getting and staying active. I was very comfortable writing the post, as I have been active for almost two months now. Activity, movement, and fitness come naturally to me. What would have made me uncomfortable? Writing about nutrition. Why? Here’s a big clue: I just finished eating natural peanut butter out of the jar along with mini-allergen free chocolate chips. The fact that it was natural peanut butter has to count for something, right?
But seriously…While I was pregnant with the boys, I didn’t just gain a lot of weight. I picked up poor eating habits I had put down years ago. When the boys were conceived, my diet was the healthiest it had ever been. I was eating clean and mostly gluten free. Then came the exhaustion and ravenous hunger. A dangerous combination for a former junk food junkie.
Now, 3 months after the birth of my twins, I am still making poor eating choices. The first poor choice is that I’m not eating enough calories. Nursing twins requires what seems to be a ton of calories. The second is a natural consequence of the first – satisfying the craving for high caloric foods with low quality foods. But I know that with some preparation I can easily meet my caloric needs, stave off cravings (can you say salty and crunchy?), and eat quality food.
So what’s holding me back? A lack of want to. Plain and simple. Which is crazy, because I really want to eat better. The problem is I’m not putting in the work to back up that sentiment. Ugh. I don’t need to read another book on nutrition. I don’t need any more head knowledge. It’s the putting it into action are where I’m falling short. I was just telling someone the other day “Either you want to do something or you don’t. If you don’t, you can find a million reasons to not follow through. If you do, you simply do it.” I hate it when I say something before realizing it really applies to me.
I don’t know about you, but I need motivation and accountability. I’m really good at motivating others and holding them accountable, but sometimes find it hard to connect with others who hold me accountable. So here I am at the tipping point, between stagnation and change, humbly asking you to hold me accountable. I’ll check in twice a week – daily is unrealistic for me and once a week isn’t often enough – and rate the quality of my diet. What is it that you need to tackle on your journey to living a healthier, more balanced life? Feel free to reply in the comment section or come over to Facebook .