This was my first blog entry for the blog I never published. I had a domain and everything. I even typed it up but never published it. I wanted it to be perfect. I still struggle with the lie of perfectionism. It is a daily struggle rooted in fear. But I know that love is greater than fear, and I have decided to just “Say It” – whatever IT may be. (See “Say It” for more background info).
I lost some important items in the past several days. I would dress it up and say “misplaced” but the simple truth is – I lost them. Did I immediately pray and ask God to reveal the location of each item (as I’ve taught my son to do)? Nope. With the exception of two of the items (debit card and checkbook), I really didn’t get overly concerned until I truly needed them.
The first thing I prayed to find was the charger for the Nook my son and I share. That was last Thursday. My son and I scoured the house and car looking for it. I even searched my work area, i.e. my desk and bookcase, of my classroom. At one point DJ asked if I had prayed yet. I told him I had and he suggested I try again. I found it this morning when I finally unplugged a boombox my husband rarely uses but insists on keeping plugged into an outlet in the bathroom. I had been meaning to unplug it for days but had too many more important things begging for my time and attention.
The next item I prayed about was my debit card. I really didn’t want to see that look on my husband’s face – the one reserved for me losing important things – again. I trusted that it hadn’t fallen into the clutches of evildoers. So, I prayed that God would give me peace until I found the card.
Now the checkbook kind of flustered me, I must admit. The only reason I had it on me was because I couldn’t find the debit card. It was raining, my son was grumpy and hungry upon waking up from a three hour nap and I just wanted to get home. Needless to say I was juggling too much to properly search for the checkbook. So I used my personal – well, actually, my health and fitness business – debit card. I didn’t even bother to pray about it. Well, I may have asked God to to let it fall into the hands of evildoers.
When I got to work on Monday I found my debit card. Actually, my substitute found it and displayed it in such a manner that I could clearly see it but the wandering eyes of evildoers could not. I found my checkbook as I went to grab my work ID from the side panel of my car door this morning.
So what have I learned over the last five days? Juggling too many tasks is when I typically lose something. Be it something tangible like a debit card or intangible like peace, joy, patience, and gentleness. Avoiding tasks is usually when I miss the opportunity to find those lost things. I’m very grateful that my God is in the Lost and Found business.
side note: DJ and I are big Marvel and DC comic fans. Hence all the references to evildoers.